i want love.

that's it. what it all comes down to. i want love. to be loved and to love with my whole being. i have yearned for that for so long. i think i may expect too much from potentials, but i think i deserve what i'm asking for. to have the sacrificial love, that we are supposed to have for each other, returned to me. women need to know that they are worth it. i need to know that i am worth it. i don't think i'm an unnattractive person. i understand i don't physically look like the girls that every guy wants with the nice sculpted face, long straight hair with the side bangs and shirtbelts,... i wear jeans and a t-shirt, have short short hair, and have large facial features... this makes me wonder sometimes. i've had one person my whole life (meaning, one man other than my dad) tell me that's what they liked about me... well, who the heck else thinks that??? obviously no one. haha.. anyway, that's not where i wanted to go with this. i just want that love. that deep, adoring, wanting and willing to do everything and anything for that other person. that's what i want. regardless of what i do and who i am or who i may turn into... i want that. i am that for him. for the man that will have me. for the husband i am anxiously waiting and praying for.