i've always been one to do great things... start some sort of ministry or do some charity work or go on some gigantic missions trip and change the world. i've realized that most of the time i'm all talk... depressing. only once have i done something that has brought me pride in the fact that i did something great for the Lord. the benefit concert i did as a senior in high school... which was amazing, by the way. something i have always wanted to do again, but never do. what will it take for me to actually do something again? i don't know. getting off my lazy bootay and doing some research to get my feet off the ground again. that might help. or just sticking my neck out on the line and taking a risk and just go all in to start something great. sometimes i feel as though i've become complacent... stagnant... a stalemate. it's a sucky place to be. the church i attend seems to have a hold on me. i can break free... i know this. i want to break free... but it's the going out on my own thing that freaks me out a bit. pray that i'm able to get out of this rut. to do something great... do something amazing... i know i can... it's the steps to get there i'm confused on... hmmm.